Monday, May 10, 2010
I Love You
Some people say if you say it too much it will lose its meaning, but how do you know this much is too much, and what if this is not enough? Would you know how much I love you if tomorrow didn't come?
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Finally found my Utopia, and this is where I'm staying (Part 1)
Ever since I lost my paradise, I've been searching the universe trying to find another place to call home. I traveled from a planet to planet with no luck. Everyone opened their hearts and houses for me, they even gave me a room and told me to call it mine, but non of them felt like home, I couldn't help but to feel that I don't belong.
I traveled back to Earth, a place I once called home, in hope to at least remember what it felt like to be home, but sadly nothing was the same, and no one was the same. New people invaded the place, concord the house, threw everything away and placed their things in there. I felt like I was in a stranger's house. I tried to change everything back to the way it was, but couldn't, tried to coop with the new state, but also couldn't, till I finally gave up and left.
I gave up on myself, and everything, I gave up on any hope to find a home once again. I decided to go to Mars, even though I already knew it was a dead, dark and a dangerous place, I didn't care anymore, all I could think of was I will be away from everyone one I know, I won't be charged from anyone, I won't be attached to anything, I won't have to care about anyone or anything anymore.
I wasted a decade of my life in that place, killing myself and everything I stood for, I was losing hope in myself, in others, in life, and everyone else. A voice of reason was ringing in my head, keeping me away from all the wrong thoughts I was having, and a distant shining star was giving me a bit of hope, something to hold on to.
I traveled back to Earth, a place I once called home, in hope to at least remember what it felt like to be home, but sadly nothing was the same, and no one was the same. New people invaded the place, concord the house, threw everything away and placed their things in there. I felt like I was in a stranger's house. I tried to change everything back to the way it was, but couldn't, tried to coop with the new state, but also couldn't, till I finally gave up and left.
I gave up on myself, and everything, I gave up on any hope to find a home once again. I decided to go to Mars, even though I already knew it was a dead, dark and a dangerous place, I didn't care anymore, all I could think of was I will be away from everyone one I know, I won't be charged from anyone, I won't be attached to anything, I won't have to care about anyone or anything anymore.
I wasted a decade of my life in that place, killing myself and everything I stood for, I was losing hope in myself, in others, in life, and everyone else. A voice of reason was ringing in my head, keeping me away from all the wrong thoughts I was having, and a distant shining star was giving me a bit of hope, something to hold on to.
One day, just when I was about to lose all my hopes, all my believes, and all that it is what was me, that shining star threw a ray of light at me, and that voice in my head said to me: "this is not you, this is not where you belong, come to me .. I will save you".
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