Finally found my Utopia, and this is where I'm staying (Part 2)

Without even thinking, I jumped into my ship, fixed it, set the destination to that star, and started my journey.

During my journey, I passed by all the places I have once been, met all the people I once met, whenever I see any of them, they all told me the same thing: "Something is diffrent about you", "something has changed in you", "you look happy, "why are you shinning like that?", the only reply I had for them: "a distant shinning star is calling out for me and I am complying the call"

I kept on my journey, put the speed at it's max, tried to reach that star as soon as I can, I couldn't wait to get there, to be there, to live there for the rest of my life. Sadly, my journey wasn't as easy as I thought it would be, a lot of obstacles crossed my way, shooting stars tried to bring me and my ship down, other planets kept throwing magnetic signals towards the ship causing my compass to spin like crazy in hopes to make me lose my path, while the sun directed all its energy and all its heat at me! I evaded those shooting stars, I had my star's light guiding me so I didn't care for the compass, as for the sun's heat, the ship felt like hell, I felt like I was melting, but I didn't care, I had my eyes on that star and I felt like nothing can hurt me, nothing will stop me from getting there.

Three months, three days, and three nights have passed. I haven't eaten a thing in days, the air in the ship ran out, I started to lose my focus, I lost control of my ship and myself! I can see the star, I can almost touch it! I got into a battle with my eyes, trying to keep them open, but it was a battle I lost, I gave up.. I fainted..

A scent like no other I have ever smelled, and a slap on the face, brought me back. I opened my eyes to something I have never seen before, not in my life and not even in my dreams! The most beautiful angel smiling at my face, shining so hard like a pure white crystal in the light of the sun. "I've been waiting for you.. Welcome home".

I inhaled a deep breathe of her scent, I felt like something was moving inside of me, fixing me, healing me! I fell into sleep, I slept as if I have never slept before, dreaming, smiling, like a baby in his mother's arms.

I Love You

Some people say if you say it too much it will lose its meaning, but how do you know this much is too much, and what if this is not enough? Would you know how much I love you if tomorrow didn't come?

Finally found my Utopia, and this is where I'm staying (Part 1)

Ever since I lost my paradise, I've been searching the universe trying to find another place to call home. I traveled from a planet to planet with no luck. Everyone opened their hearts and houses for me, they even gave me a room and told me to call it mine, but non of them felt like home, I couldn't help but to feel that I don't belong.

I traveled back to Earth, a place I once called home, in hope to at least remember what it felt like to be home, but sadly nothing was the same, and no one was the same. New people invaded the place, concord the house, threw everything away and placed their things in there. I felt like I was in a stranger's house. I tried to change everything back to the way it was, but couldn't, tried to coop with the new state, but also couldn't, till I finally gave up and left.

I gave up on myself, and everything, I gave up on any hope to find a home once again. I decided to go to Mars, even though I already knew it was a dead, dark and a dangerous place, I didn't care anymore, all I could think of was I will be away from everyone one I know, I won't be charged from anyone, I won't be attached to anything, I won't have to care about anyone or anything anymore.

I wasted a decade of my life in that place, killing myself and everything I stood for, I was losing hope in myself, in others, in life, and everyone else. A voice of reason was ringing in my head, keeping me away from all the wrong thoughts I was having, and a distant shining star was giving me a bit of hope, something to hold on to.

One day, just when I was about to lose all my hopes, all my believes, and all that it is what was me, that shining star threw a ray of light at me, and that voice in my head said to me: "this is not you, this is not where you belong, come to me .. I will save you".

First Blog Ever :)

Hey there.. I don't why I'm doing this, maybe because I'm absolutely unoccupied and oughta things to do, and I saw many people write down their thoughts and ideas, so I said, what the hell, I'll do it and see what others have to say about it.. Like an experiment :)

So, what should the first blog ever be about.. A little about me would be good as a start. So here it is:

My name is Mohammed Ghassan Mansi, my friends call me "DiDo", nickname "DiDo FRGT/10", male, date of birth march 23rd 1984, Jordanian/Egyptian, muslim-suni, straight, smoker, not an alcoholic, father is Jordanian and my mother "god bliss her soul" was Egyptian.

PC gaming addict! Favorite games; Prince of Persia franchise "ever since the 1989 version", Need for Speed franchise, Tomb Raider franchise, Resident Evil franchise, Assassin's Creed, BIOSHOCK "love this game!!", mmm.. There are many more, but these are the basics.

Music.. Will, I don't like a certain genre, as long as I like the lyrics and the music, that's good enough for me. You might have noticed from my nickname that my most Favorite artists are "Dido Armstrong" and "Linkin Park", other favorite artists: Alanis Morissette, Evanescence, Eminem, Metallica and Enrique Iglesias.

Back to me, I was born in Kuwait, lived there till I was 6, then we moved to Jordan when Saddam invaded Kuwait on August 2nd 1990. Actually, there's a funny story here, we were on our way to Jordan the day before Saddam invaded Kuwait like every other year "Summer vication", not knowing anything about that matter, once we reached the borders we heard on the radio that Saddam invaded Kuwait :) how lucky is that :)

Anywayz, I got my mid/hi-school education there in Jordan, and I also got my B. Sc. of Software Engineering from the University of Petra in Amman on June 2006, with a very good rating :) Then, I started my journey of job seeking for nearly 6 months with no-luck, decided to start looking somewhere else, so I moved to Egypt, got my Egyptian nationality, started another journey of job seeking for 3 months, then my elder brother managed to get me an interview in a software house called "BMB-MS", and they hired me "finally :)". Worked there for 6 months, developed a great software that I'm really proud of, it was sold to huge corporations "EBIC, EMAAR and ETISALAT", and I had the chance to offer tech-support to other great corporations "Vodafone and 3 Chefs", I've gained a great experience there, but I had few disagreements with the manager, so I quit :)

Afterwards, my elder brother sent me a visa to the UAE, stayed there with him for 3 months "the BEST ever!!" seeking a job "yes, AGAIN" with no-luck "AGAIN", since they only hire people with at least 2 years experience "and I only have 6 months!!", said goodbye to my brother and his lovely family, came back here and re-started my journey of ".. will, you know what" had some interviews, but nothing so far.

That's about it "so far", and I know I said at first "a little about me", but believe me that's not half the story ;)

P.S.: Surfer Girl big fan