Finally found my Utopia, and this is where I'm staying (Part 4)

I started walking toward the city not knowing where I'm going, I kept on walking for too long but the city didn't seem to get any closer.

After a while, I got tired of walking, so I decided to take a rest under the shadow of a tree, I sat on the grass and rest my back on that tree. The cool wind made me relax and I fell asleep.

I woke up on a beautiful singing voice. I stood up and started walking toward that voice, when I got closer the voice sounded clearer and I started hearing the sound of water falling down.

Finally, I found the source of the sounds, a waterfall so high I couldn't see the edge of it, falling into a lake so pure you can see the fishes Swimming down at the bottom of it, bouncing fishes jumping every where in it, the sun light reflecting on it resulting in a breath taking view of small rainbows all over that lake, surrounding it lilium flowers all around, and a small breeze of air hissing like music moving them back and forth, making it look like a dance of ballet..

There she was, swimming in the middle of the lake singing a very familiar song even though I never heard it before, and so amazing even though I didn't understand a word of it. The song hypnotized me and made me move closer to the lake unintentionally, until I reached the shores of the lake, the singing stopped and got replaced with a scream..

She stared at me for a few seconds, I was waiting for the reprimand, but instead she asked: "how did you get here? No one knows how to get to this place.. No one can get to this place!" I instantly answered: "I followed your song", and then she smiled.

*Happy Birthday My Love*

Do you beleive in Telepathy?

Wikipedia: "Telepathy (from the Greek τηλε, tele meaning "distant" and πάθη, pathe meaning "affliction, experience"), is the transfer of information on thoughts or feelings between individuals by means other than the "five classic senses" (See Psi). A telepath would be a person with the paranormal ability to read others' thoughts and mental contents. Telepathy is one kind of extrasensory perception which, along with psychokinesis, forms the main topics of parapsychological research."

When you call someone and they say I was just going to call you, or say I was just thinking about you!
When you, out of no reason, get scared for someone dear to you, and it turns out that something IS wrong with that person.
When you feel this person is good or evil, even if it's the first time you meet.
When a mother know something is wrong with one of her children.
When a twin brother hurts when his brother hurts.
When you talk to someone without saying a word...

Do you beleive in Telepathy?

Finally found my Utopia, and this is where I'm staying (Part 3)

I woke up finding myself in a purple room, lying in a huge bed, tucked in a feathery sheet, the feel of the sheet on my face made me wake up with a smile on my face, but after a few seconds I came back to reality, wondering where am I, wondering how I got here, and wondering what happened!! A butler came into the room..

"Good morning sir! Hope you had a good sleep! The queen is waiting for you downstairs so you have breakfast together. The bathroom is from this door, and you can find clothes to suit you in this closet." And he left before I had the chance to ask or even say a word.

I got out of bed after multiple attempts, because of the amazing feeling of that sheet, went into the bathroom, took a nice shower, went out, opened the closet to get something to wear, and there was the shock! All the cloths are my size exactly my style, and all are blue! Was it just a coincidence or did they know that this is my size and this my color?!

I put on some clothes and went to the balcony to take some fresh air, once I opened the balcony door I mesmerized, I was looking at a city I have never seen anything like it before, the grass, the gardens, the streets, the buildings, they all looked perfect, a real Utopia! I stayed mesmerized at the view for a few minutes, then the butler came in, "The queen is very upset from you for not having breakfast with her" I startled and asked, "She had breakfast already? I wasn't that late!", "Dinner is at noon, you better not be late on her majesty again or she'll be really upset" he replied while walking to the door, "Dinner is downstairs in the dinning room after 30 minutes" he said before closing the door. I shouted, "30 minutes!! You've just had breakfast!!", the butler paused for a second then said: "The day is 9 hours long my friend".

I stared for a few seconds, then I realized that this star is small and the day is shorter than any other place I've been before, way much shorter..

I woke up from my shock and went out of the room, I decided to tour myself in this huge castle, I found a lot of doors, all of them were locked except one, I opened it and went inside, behind that door was a room filled with perfect white, pink and red roses, filled all over the room, and in the middle of that room was a table with a golden box on it, the glow of that box drew me to get close to it, I walked towards that table, reached for the box and opened it, and before seeing what was inside I heard the queen shouting "How did you get in here?! Guards! Throw this theif out of my castle!! THROW HIM OUT OF MY KINGDOM!!" and in a second two guards carried me, took me out of the castle, and threw me out and locked the gates on me.

I ran back to the gates and shouted "What did I do, I didn't steal anything, I was just intreged! I wasn't going to take anything, I swear!", I looked up, I saw the queen looking down on me from the balcony with a mad, yet sad face, then she turned away and went back inside.

I kept on begging the guard to let me back in, to at least let me talk to the queen, I'll let her understand, I'll convince her that I wasn't intending to steal anything, I was just curious! But the guards replied with nothing but silence. I gave up on them listening to me, so I turned my back, faced that huge city, and sighed "Now what?!"

A Thank You Letter

For giving me a reason to live once again

For making me care for myself and everyone else once again

For making me trust myself and everyone else once again, and even more than before

For loving me even in my worst states, and with all my flaws

For forgiving me long before I even forgive myself

For being the voice of reason in my head

For taking me off the wrong path and setting me back on the right track

For granting me the privilege to enter the Utopia you are

For making me find my way home

For sweetening my life

For believing in me

For wanting me

For trusting me

For loving me

For being me

Thank you

Finally found my Utopia, and this is where I'm staying (Part 2)

Without even thinking, I jumped into my ship, fixed it, set the destination to that star, and started my journey.

During my journey, I passed by all the places I have once been, met all the people I once met, whenever I see any of them, they all told me the same thing: "Something is diffrent about you", "something has changed in you", "you look happy, "why are you shinning like that?", the only reply I had for them: "a distant shinning star is calling out for me and I am complying the call"

I kept on my journey, put the speed at it's max, tried to reach that star as soon as I can, I couldn't wait to get there, to be there, to live there for the rest of my life. Sadly, my journey wasn't as easy as I thought it would be, a lot of obstacles crossed my way, shooting stars tried to bring me and my ship down, other planets kept throwing magnetic signals towards the ship causing my compass to spin like crazy in hopes to make me lose my path, while the sun directed all its energy and all its heat at me! I evaded those shooting stars, I had my star's light guiding me so I didn't care for the compass, as for the sun's heat, the ship felt like hell, I felt like I was melting, but I didn't care, I had my eyes on that star and I felt like nothing can hurt me, nothing will stop me from getting there.

Three months, three days, and three nights have passed. I haven't eaten a thing in days, the air in the ship ran out, I started to lose my focus, I lost control of my ship and myself! I can see the star, I can almost touch it! I got into a battle with my eyes, trying to keep them open, but it was a battle I lost, I gave up.. I fainted..

A scent like no other I have ever smelled, and a slap on the face, brought me back. I opened my eyes to something I have never seen before, not in my life and not even in my dreams! The most beautiful angel smiling at my face, shining so hard like a pure white crystal in the light of the sun. "I've been waiting for you.. Welcome home".

I inhaled a deep breathe of her scent, I felt like something was moving inside of me, fixing me, healing me! I fell into sleep, I slept as if I have never slept before, dreaming, smiling, like a baby in his mother's arms.

I Love You

Some people say if you say it too much it will lose its meaning, but how do you know this much is too much, and what if this is not enough? Would you know how much I love you if tomorrow didn't come?

Finally found my Utopia, and this is where I'm staying (Part 1)

Ever since I lost my paradise, I've been searching the universe trying to find another place to call home. I traveled from a planet to planet with no luck. Everyone opened their hearts and houses for me, they even gave me a room and told me to call it mine, but non of them felt like home, I couldn't help but to feel that I don't belong.

I traveled back to Earth, a place I once called home, in hope to at least remember what it felt like to be home, but sadly nothing was the same, and no one was the same. New people invaded the place, concord the house, threw everything away and placed their things in there. I felt like I was in a stranger's house. I tried to change everything back to the way it was, but couldn't, tried to coop with the new state, but also couldn't, till I finally gave up and left.

I gave up on myself, and everything, I gave up on any hope to find a home once again. I decided to go to Mars, even though I already knew it was a dead, dark and a dangerous place, I didn't care anymore, all I could think of was I will be away from everyone one I know, I won't be charged from anyone, I won't be attached to anything, I won't have to care about anyone or anything anymore.

I wasted a decade of my life in that place, killing myself and everything I stood for, I was losing hope in myself, in others, in life, and everyone else. A voice of reason was ringing in my head, keeping me away from all the wrong thoughts I was having, and a distant shining star was giving me a bit of hope, something to hold on to.

One day, just when I was about to lose all my hopes, all my believes, and all that it is what was me, that shining star threw a ray of light at me, and that voice in my head said to me: "this is not you, this is not where you belong, come to me .. I will save you".